You know when you become my friend, you have to accept when you ask me about something I am gonna just tell you the truth. People often mistake my honest compliments as flattery and my honest statements as me being a heinous bitch. It's not my intention to stroke your ego or crush your soul. It is my intention to be a good friend and be as open with you as I can. I don't do little white lies, they are still lies. I might lie for your safety, but I won't lie to save your feelings because would you like me if you knew I would lie about trivial things? I wouldn't like you if you wouldn't be honest to me when I need it. If I ask you a question I want the answer not a lie. Because if you lie in the end I will just be hurt anyway. I won't lie that your man gets around, or tell your girlfriend/boyfriend/spouse that you're with me when you are fucking around. It's not who I am. It isn't because I don't care about you, but I don't believe a good friend runs around asking you to lie. If someone is sleeping with the person I love I WANT to know. I won't shoot the messenger because damnit someone should have the stones to tell me what I deserve to know. Having the truth with held makes it all the more painful when it comes out... then nothing seems real. I can keep secrets when need be. I won't tell anyone who you secretly love, that you still adore boy bands, I won't share your trauma stories, or embarrassing moments. But keeping a secret is not the same thing as a lie.
Also when I am not your friend anymore.. do me the courtesy of leaving me alone. Why incessantly bother me and accuse me of things that I wouldn't waste my time to do? I have more important shit to do than spread rumors about people... a lot more important shit. I am not just sitting around wishing we were friends and punishing you because we aren't. So don't text me twenty times to scream at me and call me a child, when it is clearly you with the maturity issue. And don't slander me with your filthy mouth and accuse me of shit talking you. Do you think this is about you? Well if you're reading this I doubt it. But I have a right to vent and so I will.
I don't want drama. I want to live my life, figure out what is going on with my move, and take care of my kids. I don't want to be involved with your pathetic relationship...
I will be there for people who accept me and love me as I am. Because I won't change and become some one else, this is who I am. And I won't apologize for it. I am a loyal friend until I am betrayed and then you may as well be dead or be prepared to offer proof that you would never do it again.. and a live organ sacrifice may also be required. I can forgive but not easily. Best to just not be a fail human to begin with. I am not hard to please.
I wish the drama bear would go live in a dark cave like normal bears and stop bothering me... Now that I have that all off of my chest I am going to attempt to salvage my evening. Stupid drama...
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